While Laura and I mourn Ira's plight I am aware that there are those whom we know that are unable to have children. The author of The Kite Runner captures the essence of what it must be like for a couple who can't conceive:
Sometimes, Soraya sleeping next to me, I lay in bed and listened to the screen door swinging open and shut with the breeze, to the crickets chirping in the yard. And I could almost feel the emptiness in Soraya's womb, like it was a living, breathing thing. It had seeped into our marriage, that emptiness, into our laughs, and our lovemaking. And late at night, in the darkness of our room, I'd feel it rising from Soraya and settling between us. Sleeping between us. Like a newborn child.
Sometimes, Soraya sleeping next to me, I lay in bed and listened to the screen door swinging open and shut with the breeze, to the crickets chirping in the yard. And I could almost feel the emptiness in Soraya's womb, like it was a living, breathing thing. It had seeped into our marriage, that emptiness, into our laughs, and our lovemaking. And late at night, in the darkness of our room, I'd feel it rising from Soraya and settling between us. Sleeping between us. Like a newborn child.
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We have several friends who are struggling with concieving children. It is such a devestating thing. Those are powerful and erily accurate words I am sure.
Having dealt with infertility personally, I can attest that it does affect every aspect of your life, as the author conveys. Praise be to God - for Jehovah-jireh, He has provided -- after a few years of struggling - we had a baby girl. After another year of fertility treatments, daily shots of heparin and progesterone - He has provided again. We are expecting our second miracle. I have several friends who have been through it, and some who never conceived. My heart and prayers go out to all of them. I continue to check your blog every day; and am praying that Jeohovah will heal Ira soon. Nothing is too difficult for Him. Your sister in Christ, Lisa G.
You have no idea who I am and the way I was lead the this blog can only be attributed to one thing, God. I am in awe of the faith, love, strength, grace and hope that has been shared here. It has touched me so very deeply I'm not sure I can even explain it. God truly works in amazing ways. I hope you don't mind if I add your family to my prayers or that I come once in a while and check on how you all are doing.
If you are still looking for tunes to perhaps help you on your journey there are a couple that I would like to offer up. The artists name is Patty Griffin and they are from her "Impossible Dream" album, "Kite Song" and "When it don't come easy". I'm a huge music fan and fully understand the power of a song to say what you can't. These two just happen to be very special to me.
There are no words to describe the despair felt when you are longing for a child and everyone around you seems to have one. Especially as a woman. As if you are unable to do what God designed women to do. I felt that for 8.5 years. I can only imagine you and Laura feel the same when you see healthy children all around you. Praise God for little Sophia and my own, David and Jack. And praise God for little Ira, shown to be God's newest miracle over and over again. His life continues to touch my heart in deep ways.
Praying,
Lisa C.
I struggled with infertility for years and know that emptiness and bitterness you feel everytime you see a pregnant women and then feeling guilty because you should be happy for them. Then I just got tired. I wanted a baby so bad and knew adoption was the only way to go and we went for it. It has been the biggest blessing of my life. And now all the emptiness I felt has melted away and it is even hard for me to remember what it was like to be without my child.
Joe and Laura you are in my daily prayers and Ira has a special place in my heart and is prayed for many times a day.
Laura and Joe, I've been visiting your blog from some of the very first days of Ira's birth. I've been so inspired by your strength and faith, but more than anything - your honesty. I love reading what two, real, and struggling Christians have to say about a trying and tumultuous journey.
Today as I read the blog, I saw this post about infertility. It's the first time I really felt connected to your situation. My husband and myself will never conceive a child (it's a long story). Because of a genetic disorder, my children would have been very sick as well. I understand the incredible difficulty of making the decisions you have made and will make for Ira. I know that just as God chooses children He also chooses parents. I hope everyday that you will both embrace this journey and also recognize the blessings in disguise. Just look back on the journey so far, and see what you've already done to create as wonderful a life for Ira as you have. It's very inspiring to those of us on the outside. Look at yourselves in the mirror and say, "I am a great Mom" and "I am a great Dad". You really deserve it.
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