Laura here.
I just spent the last 30 hours at Ira's bedside. He is on his tummy and has been for two days. He is so sedated he hasn't moved a muscle since Sunday morning. His face is so swollen he is unrecognizable. I am nervous. I have that feeling in my stomach and running through my blood like I get when I am about to perform in front of a crowd. But the performance never comes. And the nervous adrenaline won't subside.
He had a fairly peaceful night but I woke up to the nurse informing me that his CO2 levels and heartrate were high. His hands and feet were freezing. Adrenaline rush. She made some speculations and tried the things she knew to try to get them to come down. Eventually they came down some. And then they went back up. Up and down. Today the doctor said that Ira would probably get worse before he got better. He said he hoped it would take days rather than weeks but he couldn't say for sure. No one can say anything for sure. Nobody really knows if Ira will pull out of this one. One thing we know for sure is that if anyone can pull out of this its Ira. So, we hope, we pray, we wait...
Oh the waiting. So much waiting in 2005. I am tired of waiting.
I am home with Sophia tonight. Joe will spend the night with Ira.
I miss him already. I love you Ira.
Goodnight.
I just spent the last 30 hours at Ira's bedside. He is on his tummy and has been for two days. He is so sedated he hasn't moved a muscle since Sunday morning. His face is so swollen he is unrecognizable. I am nervous. I have that feeling in my stomach and running through my blood like I get when I am about to perform in front of a crowd. But the performance never comes. And the nervous adrenaline won't subside.
He had a fairly peaceful night but I woke up to the nurse informing me that his CO2 levels and heartrate were high. His hands and feet were freezing. Adrenaline rush. She made some speculations and tried the things she knew to try to get them to come down. Eventually they came down some. And then they went back up. Up and down. Today the doctor said that Ira would probably get worse before he got better. He said he hoped it would take days rather than weeks but he couldn't say for sure. No one can say anything for sure. Nobody really knows if Ira will pull out of this one. One thing we know for sure is that if anyone can pull out of this its Ira. So, we hope, we pray, we wait...
Oh the waiting. So much waiting in 2005. I am tired of waiting.
I am home with Sophia tonight. Joe will spend the night with Ira.
I miss him already. I love you Ira.
Goodnight.
posted by jch at
7:45 PM
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It seems so cruel, what you guys are going through. This isn't fair, just, or right what Ira must endure, but we pray that he can continue to endure it with the strength and resolve he has shown up to this point.
We will be home soon which means the "Iron Skillet Chicken and Vegetables" will be at your home soon as well. I know there are no words or actions that can bring you the peace and healing we all are desperate for, so I won't even try. I will say that we are still here, standing with you fear and all. And we will not be driven from our position.
We love you all.
J & A
Laura,
I can't imagine the pain, frustration, anger, and hope along with the other mix of emotions you are feeling. Not knowing must be excruciating. May God be with you and Joe in these long nights in the hospital. I wish I had the words to comfort you. The Lord be with you.
Laura, your friend j-wild puts it into words better than the rest of us....and I think they are words that also apply to being part of God's family...we will not be driven from our position....none of us will.
amen.
From one mom to another, we are praying for Ira and for you. Those who read our blog are praying, too.
Amy (Jonathan's mom)
Came by way of Cathy, sorry to learn about what is going on, its beyond words or expression....
..... but not beyond prayers.
May the Good Lord healing hands be upon those who are in need in these trying times.
PRAYING FOR ALL I'M WORTH.
I heard about your struggles from Cathy.
I'm so sorry Ira has to go through something like this at such a young age.
You have all my prayers.
~Eric
Praying for Ira and all of you.
I know you are Christians. So am I. Nonetheless, I often find comfort in eastern Religions as well when I face great trials. Here is a reading from the Tao that may be of comfort to you.
Morning.
New Day.
Joy of birth.
"All we need is the morning. As long as there is sunrise, then there is the possibility that we can face all our misfortunes, celebrate all our blessings, and live all our endeavors as human beings. Spirituality is something that has become necessary in these troubled times. Yet it is inherently superfluous. We need it to remind ourselves, to bolster ourselves, to integrate ourselves, to fulfill ourselves. If we could simply acknowledge the mystery of night and the glory of morning, we would need neither civilization nor spirituality.
At its simplest, life begins with dawn. That is blessing enough. That is happiness enough. All else becomes fullness immeasurable. At dawn, kneel down and give thanks to this wonderful event. We may think mornings are so common that they are unworthy of veneration, but how do you realize most places in the the cosmos do not have mornings? This daily event is our supreme goodness.
Greet the dawn. That is your miracle to witness. That is the ultimate beauty. That is sacredness. That is your gift from heaven. That is your omen of prophesy. That is knowledge that life is not futile. That is enlightenment. That is your meaning in life, That is your directive. That is your comfort. That is the solemnity of duty. That is inspiration for compassion. That is the light of the ultimate."
morning
365 Tao
Deng Ming-Dao
Daily Meditations
May Ira be strong to face a thousand mornings. Amen.
All the frenetic activity of the past week has been tempered by a constant awareness of your and Ira's struggle in yet another battle in his war to win life. Advent has been a harsh season of waiting, of hunkering down with Mary as she is dealt mysterious cards with only the most cryptic directions to go on. It seems that her waiting doesn't hold a candle to yours, though.
It came as no surprise to learn this morning that the word "patience" comes from a Latin root that means "to suffer." I don't dare pray that God give you more patience lest you be made to endure more suffering. I don't dare ask for an end of suffering lest suffering be the only path to victory, breath and life.
Lord, have mercy. Lord, send Your grace. And not that "trick grace" that has to settle for finding light in the darkness, but the blazing, no-question-about-it, jaw-dropping grace that has Ira hollering at his big sister to get out of the way so he can throw the ball to Joe. Please, God.
I am praying for you. I wish with all my heart everything is going to be fine and Ira is going to be fine really soon.
Many hugs and wishes
I am so sorry to hear of this..Prayers, postive thoughts and strength for Ira .
You are all in my thoughts..Hugs to u.
I heard the song on the radio today that was used on Ira's first video. It makes me mad that little Ira must face this. But what a testimony this little boy will have. I believe in my heart that God has an amazing plan for this little boy wonder. I pray for your strength Laura. You amaze me! The song from his first video, reminded me that Ira had a coming home video too! I anxiously await the day (I know it will be soon) that you post that he is home. My love from Abilene.
Sending many positive thoughts your way.
Dearest Laura,
Please know that the angels are attending to Ira and that when you are with him that you are on holy ground. Having had 2 daughters who went through near death experiences this past year, I do know something about the waiting. It is the same cauldron that Job experienced. One can talk about it; but, until you have experienced it, one can never know the pain. Yet in the midst of the worst of it, God is there! Whatever comes, you are on the anvil and God is molding and changing you into His image for His purpose. I wanted you to know that your brothers and sisters at the McKnight Road Church of Christ in St. Louis, MO will be lifting Ira up in prayer this evening in special way. God is good all the time. Look for the rod and staff and draw comfort that He is near.
Grace and Peace,
Bradford L. Stevens
St. Louis, MO
Laura,
Sorry to hear of Ira’s sickness. We pray for Ira and your family. May God continue to give Ira strength and healing. May God bless you and your family with His daily presence.
Blessings,
Rachel (Stevens) Pleasant
Oxford, Michigan
http://klintpleasant.blogspot.com/
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