They are gonig to intubate Ira on Friday morning. You might remember that neurology got involved in Ira's life in early July. They did an EEG and wanted to perform an MRI to make sure Ira didn't have a stroke or something of that nature. They did the EEG but never did the MRI. So they'll take advantage of Ira being intubated and do the MRI on Friday morning. He'll be sedated for that procedure. And then we'll all wait for the surgery on Friday night where Ira will once again be sedated.

I can't really explain it but it's different this time around. In the beginning when everything was happening so quickly we didn't really have time to catch our breath and because it was all a matter of life and death we didn't think twice about what was going on and what Ira was being put through. But now our little guy is almost four months old. He is has a personality. He communicates with us with grunts and gurgles and smiles at us. We know him much better and he knows us much better.

I remember my mom and dad having a hard time when I was a teen and had three heart procedures. I now know their feeling of absolute fear. I'm scared.